Battle's and 9 yr old sweetness....

New battle's on our hands.  I'm feeling scared.  Mostly because of the unknown.  It's not just one thing, but there is so much unknown right now.  

And I feel very uneasy.

Everything is on hold right now...and I'm trying to think of what the next step needs to be.  

Chris is wanting to go to the Philippine's for his care.  I understand that he would want to be with his family.  And they want to be with him.  I'm sure they all are very concerned and worried as much as we are. 

However, I would want to be with him through all of this.  It would be a foreign country to me, and not my native language. 
What if something happens to him???

Everything is done differently there.  And I've been trying to explain that to my parents.  I just don't know what to do.  

His health is the MOST important thing.  Something needs to be done, and the SOONER the better.  I'm almost panicking!  He wants to put off the Ct and Xrays so we can do it down in the Philippine's.  I just don't know if it is spreading or how bad it is yet.  I just know that the Dr. made it clear that they need to remove it ASAP!

I would like to bring Alexis, but she is worried about going there in the heat.  Heat hits her differently.  She's never been away from me for more than a night. 

But I don't think she realizes that I won't be able to fly home just like that.  

Then depending on the type of cancer it is, who knows what would happen next.  He may require more help.  And maybe Chemo.

There is just so much to consider.  I'd need to apply for a passport...which could take several weeks.  OR....if I drive to Seattle I could get it in a day.  BUT, that would be 10 hours of driving for me. 

I will not be working here in the next couple of weeks...and I am assuming, Chris won't either.   So, I am terrified of that, too. 

Oh my gosh....I'm so upset.  I can't even think.  

I want to share a card that Alexis, my 9 year old daughter made for Chris.  

It reads:
Dear Chris,

Me, mom and Curt are thinking of you.  Just believe that you can do it and it will never bring you down.

I know it is scary but when  you have all your family then you won't feel so scared.  We love you!  October 14, 2011

Alexis & Julie  (this was from her, but she signed my name :))

I thought this was so sweet that she made this for him.    She keeps saying that she will be there for him and telling him that she could hold his hand while they are putting the needle's in his arm.